Monday, February 16, 2009

Keeping Cupcakes

I keep having baker's remorse. Or, more accurately, dieters-baked-goods-giver-awayer's remorse. I made these last week: I ate 5, and then I made my husband take them all to work so I wouldn't eat them. And then I wished I'd kept some more.

And then on Thursday I made these:And I sent them all to school with Daphne for her school party. All except one. And after I ate that one, I wished I'd saved a few extras.

Big Daddy bought a mega bag of these from Costco on Saturday for our annual Anti-Valentine's Day party, and then we sent the remainder of the bag home with our babysitter afterward.

And I made these for our party too: And then when the party was over, I threw the rest in the trash. I didn't eat a single one. But today I wished I could.

My inner dieter and my inner eater are at odds. They hate each other. I get cravings, so I bake, and then I eat, and then I know I'll keep eating, so I ditch my sweets. And then I wish I hadn't. But part of me is glad I did. The part that wants to lose weight. And the other part of me is pissed and wants to punch the first part of me in the face. And so it goes, round after round of me arguing with me over chocolate truffle cookeis, and pink frosted sugar cookies, and peanut M&Ms.

So when my friend Kelli showed up with these today: (The world most delicious lemon cupcakes EVER. Not an actual photo), the part of me that likes to eat baked goods karate chopped the part that wants to lose weight in the neck. Then I ate one. And I'm keeping the rest.

13 comments:

Jen said...

Good for you! Indulge, diets stink!!! I wonder if they freeze well, if so thats always an option!

tiburon said...

Seriously that is just wrong.

veronica said...

Stop it! You're making me hungry.

Tiffany said...

Aaaa! I do the same thing! My neighbors think I am so nice and thoughtful each time I send my kids to their doorstep with more baked goods. But the truth is that I baked because I craved, then I ate one, panicked, and gave the rest away.

I hope you enjoy your cupcakes. I don't know how you threw away those cheesecake things....

devri said...

Lady, you got skillz, mine looked like that because they were from the store.. great job.. who cares about diets..

Kristina P. said...

OK, this just sealed the deal. I am having ice cream for breakfast.

Melissa said...

If you karate chop for each cupcake that you eat, will that burn enough calories that the cupcakes will be okay?

Answer - YES. Karate chop really hard and all is well.

Your.welcome.

Shawn said...

OOOHHHHH, I have such a LOVE/HATE relationship with food!

I had my show opening at my theatre last week and we had huge cake for the cast party---you have to understand---I LOVE cake!

Sooooo, did I have a piece?

Yes, I did----I had two.

Karyn said...

A smart person once told me that allowing yourself a treat helps you not overeat. Just it's not all the cookies in one sitting.

This person went from fat to thin and stayed thin. She's my role model.

André said...

Where can I get some of those?

MiaKatia said...

Thankfully I am too insecure in the kitchen to bake, because I would do the exact same thing. Did that with my girl scout cookies. Bought some then felt guilty and gave some away... then ended up just buying some more.

L. said...

YOU THREW AWAY THOSE LEMON BARS!?!?!?! ARIANNE! I WOULD HAVE DRIVEN TO AMERICAN FORK TO EAT SOME!

I could weep big salty tears!

jennie w. said...

Lemon bars? Garbage? you are a freak.