Monday, April 19, 2010

The Bitter-Sweet Reality of Getting Rid of Four Boxes of Clothes

Six years ago I was a size 12. A tight size 12. I was teetering on moving up to a 14. But I was determined not to go there.

Still, I didn't know quite what to do. I had been thin my whole life until recently, and I had no idea how to change things.

Then I went on a cruise. And when I got home and got the pictures back, I was shocked at how fat I looked.

It's funny how you can delude yourself about how you look in the mirror every single day. But you can't escape the cold, hard reality of a photograph.

So I went on my first diet. And I lost 18 lbs. And I was a size 8.

So I took all my size 12 clothes and packed them into boxes and put them in storage. Just in case.

Then I bounced back and forth between an 8 and a 10 for the next four years.

I went on another diet and got back to a small 8 with a brief dip to a 6 that lasted a couple of months.

I never was a size 12 again. Not even after my two kids.

But I hung onto those 12's. Just in case.

Now I am a size 6 again. And with any luck, I will lose another 5 lbs.

(I don't know what size I'll be then because my wide hips have pretty much always prevented me from being any smaller size. It'll probably just come off my boobs.)

So I'm ready to give up my size 12's for good.

And it feels right.

It's sad to think of all the money I've spent on those clothes that I will be pretty much throwing away.

But it's more of a happy thing than a sad thing.

I'm ready to say goodbye to 12, forever.

(I might keep my size 10's, though. Just in case.)


just call me jo said...

Give 'em up. If you ever (God forbid) get that heavy again they'll be out of style anyway.

Kristina P. said...

You can give them to me.

I am in between a 10-12. Usually a 12, though.

alex dumas said...

12 is not heavy... And yes, a few of us may like to go shopping in your closet.

Anonymous said...

Way to be! You have achieved what many which to achieve and never do.


Tiffany said...

Congrats. You're inspiring me, you know!

Mia said...

Let them go. You won't miss them. Congrats on the weight loss!

Hannah said...

That is so great!! I have a box of skinny clothes up in my closet. I hope to break them out in a year. Oh, babies. They kill are bodies, no? You are inspiring.

Mrs. O said...

It's that "just in case" that's the killer. I say get rid of all but 1 pair of pants and a shirt. Make more room in your life for the 6s and 8s. Way to go!

And it always comes off the boobs. Always. (I wish it came off the butt).

Sara said...

Totally Awesome!

Teachinfourth said...

Rock on for you! I know that when I dropped 30+ lbs this past year, I felt a whole lot better and I can't believe just how awful I looked in photos.

Good job!

kado! said...

donate them, you'll feel better about that AND it's a Tax donation!

Jen said...

I am in size 10's so if you ever want to get rid of any cute size 10's you know where to send them... ;)